For the past few weeks I've slowly started to distance myself from my friends and really been in a down mood. I couldn't seem to get out of it no matter how hard I tried. I begged God to just make me feel normal again and I put my fears and struggles at his feet. I was slowly falling apart and everyday it just kept getting darker. I was so lost and scared. But God pulled me out of that darkness tonight. Before tonight I really didn't want to be around many people. I even denied three hikes on a beautiful day. (rare) He pushed me to go to the Murray bonfire, I was kind of nervous because of the whole not wanting to be around people thing but there was nothing to worry about. I had such a blast and it was just so great getting to have that time with my genefam. We starting singing worship and it's like i finally felt hope after weeks of being hopeless, was finally in the light after weeks of being surrounded by darkness. God totally used those moments around the bonfire to open my eyes and heal my heart. It's awesome that the simplest moments can turn out to be the best moments in life. I was broken and in those few hours God renewed my hope, strength and joy. I have a whole new view on trust and dependence. Something I learned through this is that humans will always let you down but God never will, He's the one you have to depend on and put your trust in.
He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. -Isaiah 40:29-31
He gives us strength and when we're weak he increases our power. We will always grow tired and weary, and we will always stumble and fall, but we have Him to pick us up and give us hope! When we have our hope in the Lord our strength will be renewed by Him! With His help and strength we will run and not grow weary and walk and not be faint. His power is amazing. He is so much greater than everything we have going on in our lives. He is so much bigger than anything I could ever worry about. His plans are so much better and any of us could ever dream of. His lessons have so much more behind them than we could ever figure out. He's so powerful and amazing and will always be the one who will never let us down.
Tomorrow is the year anniversary of Genesis being a church. It's absolutely mind blowing how much God has changed in me since that first night at genesis. I'm so blessed to have such an awesome church family. So amazing. Can't wait to see what He does in the next year at genesis. It's going to be so great. I love you Abba, so much. <3
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